explicitly, you are not in a relationship
but also just as explicitly
you own shirtless poses that don’t belong to your body
your crowd smokes just as many cigarettes
as the star of an older film
that you weren’t in

a VHS copy of that film
rests in a drawer underneath the TV that
watched you grow up
it watched you grow into a great wanderer
until it was replaced because of the age

when complaining, it is important
to remember how the lips of the star move
they move just like yours
except that he is a failed actor
and you are young, you wander, and you are not an actor
his peak is committed to magnetic tape in a drawer indefinitely